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The Vampire Diaries Fic: Speaking a Dead Language
Damon/Elena BnW
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Title: Speaking a Dead Language (1/1)
Fandom: The Vampire Diaries (tv show, not book)
Characters: Damon Salvatore, Elena Gilbert
Rating: K
Words: 400
Spoilers: Through 2x8
Disclaimer:
The Vampire Diaries and its characters belong to the CW, not me. This story is purely meant to entertain. No copyright infringement is intended.
Summary: His lips against her forehead are a benediction... A tag for the final Damon/Elena scene in 2x8.
A/N: This came out of my being sick and unable to sleep. Con crit is always welcome. To lurkers and commenters alike, thank you.

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Speaking a Dead Language

For a breathless moment Damon wavers, his resolve flickering like a flame kissed by an unexpected gust of wind. Elena's watching him with those eyes; those eyes that shadow his every waking and dreaming move. They search his face, and he swears they scythe through the thin veneer of all his mocking bravado and swagger - to see inside him, where he never thought he'd want to be seen. To be known.

What he sees in her face isn't disappointment. Not fear or revulsion, either. Shoulders slumped, he asks himself if he has to do this. Does he always have to be the one who loses? He isn't good; that's not who he is, and it's not what he does. Why can't he just take what he wants, and to hell with everyone else?

"I'm sorry. What I did was selfish. I didn't want to be alone. Guess I just needed my brother."

An apology. An admission he simply can't ignore. The memory straightens his spine and shoulders. Gives weight to his decision. He's spent 145 years trying to make his brother miserable; he won't do it now, or make his own feelings another burden for Elena to carry.

But this girl-woman has her slim fingers wrapped around the chambers of his dark heart. He needs her to know that.

And then he needs to wipe the memory from her mind, making her knowledge that he loves her nothing more than a puff of moist breath against a cold windowpane; visible for mere seconds before it fades into oblivion. A ghost.

It's time; he can't delay it any longer.

His lips against her forehead are a benediction, and he closes his eyes, trying to freeze the moment in his mind. As if memory could ever replace soft flesh and warm blood. "God, I wish you didn't have to forget this. But you do."

And then he looks into her eyes one last time. It's done.

The yawning emptiness in Damon's chest reminds him precisely why he spent so many years destroying, running, hiding. Caring, doing the right thing, it hurts.

As he leaves Elena's bedroom, he sees Stefan's face in his mind's eye. Whatever he's lost tonight, he's also regained something: his brother. He hopes it's enough.

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outch! I have this theory about true love. I believe that the stronger the love the more selfless it grows. I believe whole heartedly that Damon loves Elena more than Stefan ever could or will.

He walked away with his love to protect her from himself before anyone else. In that respect, given that he walked out, he's the bigger man in my mind.

I am with you completely on selfless love. I think you are absolutely right and I think that Damon does love her more than Stefan ever could or will.

Damon is definitely the bigger man.

in every respect :p VIVA DELENA!!!

I hear you. I don't know whether I think Damon loves her more than Stefan does. I need to ponder this more deeply. :)

It's terrible, but my mind went straight into the gutter when you said you think Damon's the "bigger man." *g* I KNOW that's not what you meant, but I suppose I was feeling impish. Forgive me.

Totally unrelated to your comments, but I need more TVD icons.

I understand where the confusion came from :p now that you pointed it out, its stuck in my head. my own dirty little secret. thank you :p

STOP IT. You're making me love him even more than I already did. That selfless kind of love from Damon is just astounding.

Gah. Yeah, the bunny has to, has to be written. Even if I only ever show it to you.

Also, this was one of the songs on the show recently - loved it, so I'm sharing the lyrics.

Andrew Belle - "In My Veins"

Nothing goes as planned
Everything will break
People say goodbye
In their own special way
All that you can rely on
And all that you could fake
Will leave you in the morning
Come find you in the day
Oh, you’re in my veins, and I cannot get you out
Oh, you’re all I taste, at night inside of my mouth
Oh, you run away, cause I am not what you found
Oh, you’re in my veins, and I cannot get you out
Everything will changed
Nothing stays the same
Nobody is perfect
Oh, but everyone is to blame
All that you rely on
And all that you can save
Will leave you in the morning
Will find you in the day
Oh, you’re in my veins, and I cannot get you out
Oh, you’re all I taste, at night inside of my mouth
Oh, you run away, cause I am not what you found
Oh, you’re in my veins, and I cannot get you out
No I cannot get you out
No I cannot get you out
Oh no, I cannot get you out
No I cannot get you out
Everything is dark
It’s more than you could take
But you catch a glimpse of sunlight
Shining
Shining down on your face
Your face
On your face
Oh, you’re in my veins, and I cannot get you out
Oh, you’re all I taste, at night inside of my mouth
Oh, you run away, cause I am not what you found
Oh, you’re in my veins, and I cannot get you out
No, I cannot get you out
No, I cannot get you out...
Oh no, I cannot get you...


*mwah* I firmly believe he was trying to look out for both Stefan and Elena in that scene. Without question, he's done some horrible things to people, but I can't help but "buy" IS' portrayal of Damon as a vamp in progress -- and in love. There is definitely a part of me that feels a little guilty about how much I love him and D/E, but then I just take a deep breath and remind myself it's fiction, and I don't condone the pain he's inflicted on people. Nor am I trying to be Damon apologist. I just like the character, and I like the 'ship. :) He fits the "bad boy" archetype, and I find the idea of him trying to be a better man (vamp) relentlessly appealing. It's the journey, I think, that makes him so interesting -- at least to me.

You MUST write your fic. I have really long writing dry spells. I think I'm a slow writer and a pretty average one. Add a 21-month-old to the mix, and it's a mess. *g* I drive myself insane by second-guessing everything I DO actually manage to get out. Then there are the moments when I read someone else's fic, discover the person is like, 13 years old, and writes in a way I won't be able to write even when I'm 90. :P

But sometimes I find it helpful to stay up a little later, cram in some writing when M. naps, and just get something out; to release it into the world and accept that it's not the length and polished opus I had hoped it would be, but damn it, I WROTE something instead of just THINKING about writing, and someone besides me read it. None of this is to imply that YOU have any writerly neuroses, though. I'm just babbling. Which seems to be a bad habit when I talk to you. ;)

BTW, that song is PERFECT for them. The singer's voice is very similar to Mat Kearney's. Do you know of Erin McCarley? She did the backing vocals on In My Veins, and she sings a gorgeous song called Pitter-Pat. If you haven't heard it, I'm sure it's up on my Youtube.

I need to put together a Damon/Elena playlist. Can you tell I'm completely obsessed?

Um, did I say thank you for reading and feeding? :D

You never have to thank me for reading. And as a writer, I know what a boost the feeding can be, too. Um, if you feel inclined to make a playlist, let me beg you nicely to do just that - have I told you how your Bones mix (and then the Booth-specific one) helped me get going on the ... ahem ... Bones fic I never finished?

I do what you mean - sometimes you just have to put SOMETHING out. I started reposting old work in hopes that it'd spur something new.

Also, this is not me giving false praise: you're not an average writer. Your characterizations are so dead-on that it stuns me, and you have a gift for language. So there. ;-)

And yes, yes, I'm going to write it. I kind of have to.

OMG! You're doing fic for Damon/Elena! I LOVE Damon/Elena and have since I read the books back in junior high. You are too awesome and this is too awesome! I LOVE IT! I also love the brother bond between Stefan and Damon and you captured that beautifully.

Meggi! :) Hi, honey. I haven't read the books, but I started mainlining the show in mid-November. Haven't looked back since. *g* I love how conflicted Stefan and Damon's relationship is. There's a lot of anger, yes, but there's also genuine affection. ♥

And Damon/Elena are delicious. I can't help how much I like them. Damon's done some horrible things, and I don't want to just whisk them under the rug and ignore them. Yet I still love him as a character and am rooting for him and Elena.

Thanks for letting me know you read and liked this. I feel pretty tentative about posting these tidbits because I'm so new to the fandom.

I don't usually comment on fics, especially when I don't watch the community where I find them, but I think this piece is absolutely amazing. It's so clean and deep and Damon, and I'm really glad that I stopped by to read it.

Wow. Well I'm doubly appreciative that you stopped by to read this, given what you said about not commenting on fics, particularly when you don't watch the relevant comm. Thanks for taking the time to do so this time! I hope I made it worth your while. :)

The yawning emptiness in Damon's chest reminds him precisely why he spent so many years destroying, running, hiding. Caring, doing the right thing, it hurts.

THIS is precisely why I cannot help but love Damon. He may do horrible things, lashing out when he's wounded, but his actions come from having his love rejected, always being second best to Stefan. Their whole lives, he's been deemed inferior. When has anyone ever truly loved him?

I agree with you. :( When will someone (Elena) choose him, just once? Hope we're around to see it.

Thanks again for reading and leaving feedback.

As much as I want that, I wonder what the writers are going to come up with to justify a more than a few episodes long Stefan/Elena break-up...and I don't want her to choose him because Stef messed up. I want her to love him as deeply as he loves her. Ugh, being a fangirl is so complicated.

BTW...I just added you as a friend. LOL

I'm totally with you on wanting her to choose Damon for the right reasons, not as a rebound guy.

Happy to have another friend; I'll add you back. :)

that image of the memory like a breath on a window pane is beautiful!

ugghh you are just too darn awesome!! Loved the way you had Stefan's confession ignite Damon's resolve, I'm certain the two scenes were meant to compliment one another and you illustrated that so brilliantly here :)

"But this girl-woman has her slim fingers wrapped around the chambers of his dark heart. He needs her to know that." <-- THAT = WOW. did I ever mention how wonderfully you write Damon?? Well, if not, here it is hehe :p


Loved the way you had Stefan's confession ignite Damon's resolve, I'm certain the two scenes were meant to compliment one another and you illustrated that so brilliantly here :)

I really do think the scenes were intentionally linked, so I'm happy I was able to show that here in a way that you believed. :) You hurt the ones you love, right? Damon and Stefan wouldn't have been locked in such a long battle if they didn't care so much.

Stefan needed to say it; needed to apologize. Damon needed to hear it. Damon needed to tell Elena he loves her; she needed to hear it.

So pleased that you enjoyed the image of Elena's fingers around Damon's heart. It felt appropriate when it occurred to me.

did I ever mention how wonderfully you write Damon??

Thanks a lot! This is me, grinning ear-to-ear, despite the massive congestion both my daughter and I are fighting.

You're wonderful to leave me detailed feedback like this. ♥ Thank you.

aww omgosh I hope you and your daughter feel better!! As much as I love winter, I'm sure we can all do without the constant illness lol :(
And you're always welcome!! You're work is just too awesome to leave uncommented hehe :p<3

Thanks! I hate being sick. But it will pass. I'll just have to keep repeating that. :)

*mwah* You're a sweetheart.

Oh wow, that was lovely! I love how you linked the two scenes together, because I really feel as much as he doesn't want to be selfish with Elena, he doesn't want to be selfish with Stefan either. He loves Stefan too, and it shone through big time in that episode. And the forehead kiss, oh the forehead kiss...the way you described it was just beautiful!

His lips against her forehead are a benediction, and he closes his eyes, trying to freeze the moment in his mind. As if memory could ever replace soft flesh and warm blood.

*Thud* Great work!

I agree that Damon erased his confession from Elena's memory for BOTH Elena and Stefan. Damon and Stefan have a complicated relationship, but they do love each other. I think Stefan's apology touched Damon more than he'd admit.

And the forehead kiss, oh the forehead kiss...the way you described it was just beautiful!

Thank you! I'm glad that part seemed appropriate. :)

Also, I added you, hope you don't mind! :)

I don't mind at all. Thanks for letting me know. I added you, too. :)

Hi :) I've a confession to make..I've been lurking on your TVD fic :)

I've just got in to the fandom (because Damon/Elena just kills me) but haven't found a lot of great fic yet. That changed with yours- you have both D and E's voices down pat. I love your writing style too, it's rich and descriptive but still succinct and elegant- IMHO!

I'd like to friend you for updates if that's okay! I'm a drama/stress-free person :) I don't have many TVD friends either so would love to make a few more connections in this fandom :)
Looking forward to reading more Delena fic from you!

*g* Well I'm glad you've liked what you've read enough to lurk! Lurking is just fine, but I am also happy you came out of hiding to say hi. :)

I'm new to The Vampire Diaries, too, but I am loving the show (and Damon/Elena).

That changed with yours- you have both D and E's voices down pat. I love your writing style too, it's rich and descriptive but still succinct and elegant- IMHO!

That's very kind of you to say. Thank you. ♥

Happy to have another friend on-board. Thanks for letting me know. I've added you back.

Thank you again for reading and commenting; it's always nice to hear what a reader thought.

Beautiful! Your writing is amazing!

Thank you for your generous comment! ♥

Lovely.

A little con crit for you. You write beautifully, but I think a good beta would help you to tighten up some of your metaphors. For example, 'gust of wind' is too strong (and not nearly pretty enough), to go with the 'kissed' in the same sentence, I think something like a 'sudden draft' or 'breezy whisper' would serve you better.

Thank you very much. Con crit is hard to come by sometimes, and I appreciate your honesty. I think your comment about the wind is right on-target. Many thanks to you for taking the time to leave such a thoughtful response.

The yawning emptiness in Damon's chest reminds him precisely why he spent so many years destroying, running, hiding. Caring, doing the right thing, it hurts.

Yes, yes, yes! This is exactly how I imagine Damon's thoughts going. I love this snapshot of him.

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