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Fic: Four Secrets Brennan Will Never Tell Booth--and One She Did (1/4)
Beautiful Bones - lerdo
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Rating:  M
Spoilers:  Through Season 2, to be on the safe side.
A/N:  Thanks to alderaan_ for the prompt. :)

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One

Roxanne, you don't have to wear that dress tonight - The Police

She kept the dress. The dress—the black one he bought her when they were in Las Vegas. Though she hasn't worn it since then, she likes to pull it out of the back of her closet sometimes and look at it. Look at it and remember.

Remember the frank appreciation in Booth's dark eyes when she stepped out of the bathroom. "That's hot," he'd said as he zipped up the dress. She'd been on the phone with Cam at the time, so she'd hastened to cover up by making an inane comment about the weather. But she'd known what he really meant—and a small, secret part of her had thrilled to hear him verbalize what had been so patently obvious in his eyes—even to her. She isn't nearly as oblivious as people think she is. After all, she's a woman, and she knows that when Booth glanced at her that day, he saw her as a woman, not as his colleague.

She told him once that she had former partners she could call when she was in need of release. And that's true. But she hasn't called any of them in a long time—not since Sully left. Which doesn't mean that she hasn't needed release since then. There are many nights when she does. Many nights when she lies awake, restless and aching for something she can't have. On those nights, she doesn't hesitate to masturbate. Invariably, she recalls the stunned expression on his face, and the way it made her feel. As she touches herself, she recalls the easy way he touched her that day, wrapping a well-muscled arm around her as if it was the most natural thing in the world.

It was easy and natural. For Tony and Roxie, caught in the glitter and illusion of Las Vegas.

Unfortunately, he isn't Tony, she isn't Roxie, and they are no longer in Vegas. No, he is Special Agent Seeley Booth, and she is Dr. Temperance Brennan, and no matter how much she might wish it were otherwise, he drew a line in the sand. Out of respect for him, she won't cross it.

Here in her bedroom, though, the line is hazy and indistinct, shifting like a desert mirage. So if she imagines that the hands playing over her breasts are his, there is no one to object. If she pretends each stroke that brings her one heartbeat closer comes from his deft fingers, there is no one to tell her otherwise.

And if it is his name that falls from her lips when her body shudders with release, there is no one to hear it but her.

She kept the dress, but she won't wear it again...Unless he asks her to wear it for him. Which he never will—because she'll never admit that she kept it.


She isn't nearly as oblivious as people think she is.

She's not, but I think it serves her well to let people go on thinking that.

Love the last paragraph. All those what-ifs could make things very different.

She's not, but I think it serves her well to let people go on thinking that.

*g* Absolutely—and Brennan is nothing if not practical.

Thank you, my deviant little friend. ;)

She should say it to him!!! Sure. I would kill for see his face if he knew that she masturbates thinking of he XD

And a small, secret part of her had thrilled to hear him verbalize what had been so patently obvious in his eyes.
Yes!!! That "That's hot" and the Booth’s face were one the best parts of the episode.

He drew a line in the sand. Out of respect for him, she won't cross it.
I HATE this line. But I know that they will cross someday.

Thank you for writing this great fic :)

Besos

I think Booth would have a heart attack if he knew Brennan touched herself while thinking of him. *g*

The line is a moot point now; they crossed it a long time ago. :)

I'm happy you're enjoying this, Isabel. Thank you for the prompt.

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Thanks so much, Sam. Brennan's a fascinating character; I love her as much as Booth does. :)

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She kept the dress, but she won't wear it again...Unless he asks her to wear it for him. Which he never will—because she'll never admit that she kept it.

I LOVE it. I think it's safe to assume this is my new favorite fic of yours. The ending is just awesome.

When I read "Las Vegas" I couldn't help but think that in six months, I'll be there too! (but I absolutely don't wanna think about the Paris-L.A. flight *sighs*)

*hugs from France*


Aw, Melissa, thank you so much! I love that you loved this. :)

*hugs you back*

Your trip sounds exciting, despite the long flight. I'm sure you'll have a blast once you're back on the ground.

I love it. Really great work.

I always love your ideas. I whish I had some of them LOL At the moment I'm more the angsty writer. Don't know why.

Yup, like I said, really amazing work.

*waves hello* Thanks, Sabi.

Angst, happiness, and everything in between; it's all good when it comes to writing. :)

Great fic...loved it!!!

;)

Thanks; glad you enjoyed it. :)

OMG! that was... i don't even have the words to describe it.
i love it. i think it's kind of sad that she feels that way
but i love how you get into Brennans mind, and the way you descride how she feels. Wonderful!!

Thank you, Kiska.

It's definitely sad that she feels that way; it hurts to want someone you can't have (or think you can't have).

Oh, you're killing me, here. (but in a good way)

So much that's revealing and in character...Wow!

1. She kept the dress. Of course she kept the dress. She'd say she was practical, but we know the real reason.

2. Her acknowledgment and appreciation of Booth's appreciation is significant. Her admitting to wanting to be thought of as Smurfette - pretty, attractive, sexy - rather than brainy smurfette - means that, despite her denial, she'd like to be thought of as an attractive, pretty, woman.

3. She isn't nearly as oblivious as people think she is. True, so true. She sees a LOT, but her previous life experiences have taught her to reveal nothing. After all, if you've revealed nothing, you've lost nothing. Also: writer of best sellers - she sees a LOT. She knows more about pop culture than she appears to know. (Just as Booth knows more than he lets on, too. Remember in Season 1, he told Brennan and Zach that he didn't know Latin? That's just Secretive!Booth, who didn't want to give too much away. After a year or so of therapy, though, he's willing to admit the Latin bit to Hodgins.)

4. She's independent, self-sufficient, and can certainly (ahem) take matters into her own hands.

Love this, love this, love this.

You are, as always, astute and articulate. I'm just going to nod vigorously and say that I agree with your entire analysis. So funny that you mentioned the Latin thing with Booth; I was JUST thinking about that on Monday.

Love this, love this, love this.

*hugs you* Thank you, my dear.

I absolutely adored it. I love the way you write Bones and Booth.

Thank you very much! I love to write them. :)

I had never read a fic about Brennan masturbating while thinking of Booth, but I've thought about it sometimes, I mean, if someone had written about it. Now you have. Oh-my-God.

It's so well written... :):)

Loved it.

*g* Yeah, I went there. LOL But come on; you know she's been there. ;)

Thank you, my friend.

They way you show Brennan's shyness is amazing. I love how you write her. Keep going on this fic :)

Thanks, Emily. Yup, there's more to come. :)

Your Booth/Brennan fics are amazing! Angsty and sexy :) Can't wait to learn more of her secrets...Especially because they show us Booth's feelings much more and we don't see as much from Brennan's side...I believe she wouldn't be able to live without him, but it's all coming to her very slowly :)

It's more subtle, how they show Brennan's feelings. She's a bit of an enigma.

Your Booth/Brennan fics are amazing! Angsty and sexy :)

Thank you; so glad you're enjoying reading them. :)


This is a great piece, so in character! I really loved this line,

Here in her bedroom, though, the line is hazy and indistinct, shifting like a desert mirage.

it's just beautiful.

Amazing, I love it! :)

Thank you, Tori. I try my best to keep characters in character, so I'm thrilled you felt that they were, in this.

Glad you liked that sentence. :)


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You just keep topping yourself. I haven't read one of these yet where I haven't thought 'that was really good'. That was really good. See. Not only can you get inside Booth's mind but you can read Brennan too. *is envious*

Thank you, Sara. I'm glad this worked for you.

See. Not only can you get inside Booth's mind but you can read Brennan too.

I just guess. A lot. *g*

*is envious*

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