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General Hospital Ficlet: Closer to Fine

Title: Closer to Fine
Rating: T or PG-13
Pairing (Implied):  Nikolas Cassadine/Elizabeth Webber
Set sometime after Lucky's post-carnival proposal.
Summary:  Elizabeth finds a little clarity. Ficlet set after Lucky's post-carnival proposal.
Author's Note:  So I haven't watched GH in ages, and I was (probably always be) a Liason fan.  But I like to think I can see the possibility in different pairings, so when I saw some of Nikolas/Elizabeth's recent clips on YouTube, I was thrilled by their chemistry.  They're old friends seeing each other through new eyes; I like that. :)
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Closer to Fine

Elizabeth doesn't spend a lot of time feeling sorry for herself -- she can't; she's got two boys depending on her to care for them, guide them, love them.  They're in the world because of her choices, not theirs, and as a mother she owes them whatever they need. 

Sometimes what they need comes at the expense of what she needs.  She wants to believe they always come first, but she knows that's not true.  Cam and Jake fill her life in ways she never anticipated before they existed.  Their wet kisses and little-boy smiles make up for every extra shift she's worked at the hospital, every small indulgence she's foregone because it would be too expensive. 

And yet when another day is over, and her boys have been fed and bathed and read Goodnight Moon for the fourth consecutive time in one night, she hears her solitary breaths echo throughout the house Jason bought for her.  Two small boys, the loves of her life in their own particular way, lie asleep in their beds, and Elizabeth, Elizabeth feels...empty.  Why, when she's loved and been loved by several men, is there no one to dry the dishes after she's washed them, or to pull her feet into his lap and rub her aching feet?  Why is there no one to put her first?

How does she always end up alone? 

She doesn't want to be alone.  What she wants so much it scares her, is to be in Nikolas' arms.  During the few scattered minutes she's spent there she forgot how hard it is to not have a partner, an equal, someone to lean on as she walks through life and tries to give her sons the kind of life they deserve.  In his arms, in his kiss, in those dark, dark eyes that she's looked into for so many years and maybe never truly seen until recently -- there she found more than comfort.  More than strength.  More than desire, though it's his name she whispers in the dark, his hands she imagines on her body, when she touches herself. 

She doesn't want to hurt anyone, least of all Lucky.  As much as she still loves him, she's not in love with him anymore.  The girl who loved Lucky Spencer with passion and desperation is gone; she's been gone a long, long time.  The woman left in her place has too much to lose to keep making the same tired mistake again.  

It's unexpected.  It's wrong.  It's a complication she's pretty sure she doesn't need.

But it and he are what she wants, and that's a truth she can no longer hide. 

Tomorrow she'll tell Lucky she can't marry him.  Tomorrow maybe a piece of her history will finally rest in the past.  Tomorrow might be the start of something new -- complete honesty -- and that means more than whether she'll ever be in Nikolas' arms again. 

It has to; it's time to be the kind of woman her sons deserve, the kind of woman she can face in the mirror without flinching. 

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Nikolas and Elizabeth? Wow. I never thought of them as a romantic pairing but, looking back over the years, I can see the chemistry between the actors. I guess it's not that great of a leap from "great old friends" to something more. Especially since those actors have been playing off each other for over 10(!) years. I haven't watched GH regularly since the Sonny/Brenda days but I just might have to search this out now.

I got excited when I saw there was Nikolas/Elizabeth on my flist (after I wondered when I'd joined a GH fic comm) and then I saw that it was YOUR fic and I literally squeed outloud! :)

Elizabeth has always been one of the characters of my heart and you've captured her beautifully here! All of her faults and her flaws and the way she tries so hard to do what's right for her and for the boys and men in her life. I loved your last line but more than that I loved your first paragraph because it just read so true to her character. Fantastic fic! :)

I've been watching General Hospital, on and off again, for pretty much my entire life, (my mom used to watch it too) and just last week I turned it on after not watching for quite a while and saw that apparently something had happened between Liz and Nikolas and was quite confused. I may just have to hunt those clips down that you mentioned now.

Soap opera time makes me laugh though. All this time later and they're still dealing with Lucky's drug problem and his affair with Maxie.

I'm not reading the fic, although I'm sure it's good, but I am bringing news.

GH has fired Greg Vaughn and is bringing Jonathon Jackson back as Lucky. I kid you not. Annnnd.. general consensus is that we think they'll be aborting Niz in favor of trying to fix L&L2 as if that's even possible. Welcome back to the lovely world of soaps :\

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