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Lie to Me Fic: There's a Reason Not to Want This, But I Forgot
Cal/Gillian Office Sitting
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Title: There's a Reason Not to Want This, But I Forgot
Fandom:  Lie to Me
Characters:
Gillian Foster, Cal Lightman
Rating: K or PG
Spoilers:
Through 1x11: Undercover
Timeline: Set during the final scene of 1x11: Undercover
Word Count: 400
Disclaimer:
Lie to Me and its characters belong to FOX, not me. This story is purely meant to entertain. No copyright infringement is intended.
Summary: People were the sum of their choices, and she wanted to be a good person. Set during the final scene of 1x11: Undercover. Cal/Gillian.

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There's a Reason Not to Want This, But I Forgot

"You didn't just happen to find Alec's glasses the other night, did you?  You thought he was having an affair."  It was a dangerous question, but the words had slipped from between her lips, touching air:  she couldn't take them back. 

"I was afraid you were going to get hurt," Cal replied without hesitation, his hand settling on her arm.  A simple touch, with simple words.  Nothing was simple.

His honesty and his palm warmed more than just her skin.  She struggled to keep from lifting her own hand to cover his and keep it in place.  The act of wanting something didn't equal possession.  If it did, she would hear Sophie's laughter every day, instead of imagining it in her dreams.

"You were protecting me?" she asked, unable to keep a note of wonder from her voice.

"Something like that, yeah," he said, with a small nod of confirmation.  Pleasure winged through her, swift and unexpected.  Undeniable. 

For a second she let herself forget -- her obligations, her commitments, all the reasons why... 

She caught herself.

A choice hovered in this moment. 

People were the sum of their choices, and she wanted to be a good person.  "You know the line we talk about?  You know, the line we have to draw because we see things people are hiding?  Things they don't want us to know...  I think we should respect the line.  I think it's best for both of us."

He didn't reply, just looked back at her, brow furrowed and eyes thoughtful, watchful, in the small golden circle of light that enveloped them.  Seeing too much, as always, she was certain.  His silence didn't escape her notice, and she knew him too well to take it for complete acceptance.  If he had argued, she could have continued.  Then she might have had a chance of convincing herself as she worked to convince him.  But he didn't.  So neither did she.  

The weight of his gaze pressed against her, as solid and warm and real as that of his hand on her arm moments ago.  Or had it been a lifetime?  She finally glanced away.  "Good night, Cal," she said, injecting finality and a firmness she didn't feel, into the words.

After three heartbeats, he spoke.  "Night, love," he replied, voice hushed.

She sighed as he stood and walked away, leaving the casual endearment drifting in his wake.



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SQUEEEEE!!!! Lie to Me fic from Lerdo!!! I haven't seen Undercover yet - I'm going to watch it today. So I'll come back and read right after that. *sigh* I LOVE Cal/Gillian...

Back soon!

Ok, so I was thinking that Undercover was the last episode, totally forgetting it was a last season ep. Silly me!

This was a lovely exploration of that scene. The dynamic that Cal and Gillian have is one that we don't really see on television much, and I am so looking forward to having more of their past revealed to us. Something tells me that they might even have a brief romantic history of some kind, I dunno! But I really enjoyed this, and I hope that you keep writing for the show. Maybe one day I'll even try my hand at it. Well done!

She struggled to keep from lifting her own hand to cover his and keep it in place. The act of wanting something didn't equal possession. If it did, she would hear Sophie's laughter every day, instead of imagining it in her dreams.

Guh! Beautiful beautiful!!!

TT sent me over here to read this, and I'm so glad she did. This scene is one of my absolute favourites, I adore it. I love your annotations, they are spot on. People were the sum of their choices, and she wanted to be a good person. is exactly how I see Gillian as a character and in this scene. Beautifully written.

Also, good choice of song lyric for your title - you've beaten me to it! :) I love Vienna Teng.

Beautiful beautiful.

The weight of his gaze pressed against her, as solid and warm and real as that of his hand on her arm moments ago. Or had it been a lifetime? She finally glanced away. "Good night, Cal," she said, injecting finality and a firmness she didn't feel, into the words.

Guh. SO exactly how I picture her feelings at that moment, like she didn't really want to hush him away, but she didn't want to give in to her emotions either. This was awesome.

Thank you so much for your lovely comment. ♥

I really liked this. Nice little story with a lot of weight.

Thank you! Glad you enjoyed this.

You are going to have me watching this show, aren't you?

Ah, a favorite moment between Cal and Gil for me. And you explored it beautifully. I always wonder, though, what goes through Cal's head when she softly pushes him away, and back behind the line?

And why, as she sorta did in this week's episode, when he questions her about Ben's drug use bother her - does she hearken back to that line when they've all but crossed it this season?

All fun things to ponder about this lovely relationship.

If it did, she would hear Sophie's laughter every day, instead of imagining it in her dreams.

This line sticks out and haunts me. We see her sensitivity to children often, but only that one time on the roof do we see the tragedy she hides.

Those two are amazing together. But I'm hesitant to get too drawn in because I'm afraid the show might get cancelled after this season and I will thus be crushed. Enjoyed this ficlet though. Can you write a longer, multi-chapter LTM fic? There aren't too many of them I can find that I like (and are well written)

Celia

Why haven't I read this earlier? I have that quote of Foster saved on a notepad file since I saw that episode. Such a beautiful and at the same time heartbreaking (or heart-crushing?) scene.

Loved this, and I hope to read more LTM fics from you from times to time ;)

ps. For a lack of a LTM icon I had to use one of BB's.

I love this and I love Gill's POV on why she needs the line. She knows Cal would cross it in a heartbeat, so she has to be the good girl. I want to give her a hug for that. (Not sure if it's for approval or sympathy lol, probably both.)

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