Hugs and thanks for all the good words, thoughts, and advice you guys have sent our way. I appreciate them so very much! We have a good support system here, but there are still just things you have to go through in moments like this, you know? I am so tired I can't even articulate it.
Mini-update: My mother seems to be OK, though the neurologist is sending her for an MRI just in case, and has asked her to start taking low-dose aspirin.
DH has had his MRI and 24-hour EEG; his follow-up appointment with the neurologist is tomorrow. His mood has improved, so I think he's slowly adjusting to the Keppra, but he is still pretty sleepy. We are hoping we'll have SOME answers tomorrow, but the likely outcome is that we WON'T know anything more. There in lies the rub. Or it could be something horrible -- like a brain tumor. I don't know. We are living minute to minute right now. Time flows differently when someone is ill (or potentially ill). Days drip drip drip by, like water from a partially-open faucet.
I am feeling pretty burnt right now; like I am running on fumes. But M. is a child and I have an obligation to her to keep moving even when it's the last thing I want to do. Hopefully relief is around the corner. We'll see.
Thank you again, to new friends and old, and much love. I hope I can repay the favor if/when you need it. <3
So sorry for all the stress. As far as I'm concerned, there's not much worse than NOT knowing these kinds of things, b/c most of our minds LOVE to hang out in worst-case-scenario land. Trying to brace yourself just in case, I guess. But that stuff can drive you crazy, and it consumes your energy much faster.
We will ALL be pulling for least-upsetting of all the possible things, and also, just for the security of knowing exactly wtf you and your family are dealing with.
Take care, bb. A lot of people love you. <3
How are YOU? Did you speak with your doc?
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God grant you and yours whatever you need most to help you through this time. I think of you and keep you in my prayers.
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*sending big hugs your way* I am glad that things seem to be looking good for your mom and hope things continue on a good path for your DH.
Mwah!!
The running on fumes thing? Is where I have been at for while...
I hope and wish that you get an amazing outcome, and that DH is OK, more than OK. and your Mom too.
I know what you mean though about the time flowing differently... like the days are passing so fucking quickly even though the hours you spend living them can seem to drag on forever.
I'm not gonna burden you with my crap, just know I get it. I too have a child and she's the one I have to at least appear OK for even when everything is falling apart.
More hugs & good wishes.
*bug hugs*
Kids keep us going even when we don't want to; we owe it to them. It's a blessing and a curse, as I'm sure you know! Whatever challenges you're facing in your own life, I hope you get the help you need to face them. ♥
Glad to see that DH's testing is done and you're getting the results tomorrow. Hopefully you will get some definitive answers tomorrow, although the brain tumor is a no go, so fingers crossed it's something minor.
But M. is a child and I have an obligation to her to keep moving even when it's the last thing I want to do.
But if you get sick the whole works grinds to a halt. Remember, sitting for an extra movie in front of the TV won't scar her for life and will give you a chance to rest. It also doesn't make you a bad mother. This is an extreme situation, so do what you have to do to make your life easier.
Hugs, hon...
*hugs*
Edited at 2010-12-27 02:19 pm (UTC)
i wish i could come babysit or take you to lunch or SOMETHING. mad love to you sweetie. hang in there.
Thinking of you often, and with much hope.