Not much time to post right now, but I wanted to jot down some thoughts while they were fresh in my mind. I wrote and posted Why I Write: A Personal Statement because I knew there would be moments like this--when I would look at my writing and think:
1. Who the hell am I kidding? I have no idea what I'm doing.
2. It's pedestrian, derivative, boring, and just plain bad.
3. There's so much I have to learn; I don't even know if I'm capable of learning it.
4. What if I just don't have anything meaningful to say?
Sometimes I think I am my own worst enemy.
1. Who the hell am I kidding? I have no idea what I'm doing.
2. It's pedestrian, derivative, boring, and just plain bad.
3. There's so much I have to learn; I don't even know if I'm capable of learning it.
4. What if I just don't have anything meaningful to say?
Sometimes I think I am my own worst enemy.
Hugs to you.
All I can say is, you have given me a lot of enjoyment, take that for what it's worth.
And sometimes, I'll go back and read something I've written and I'll find one perfect sentence and I'll think - AHA - that's why I keep doing this. Try it, you'll see what I mean.
It's worth a lot.
Thank you--for the encouragement and your suggestion. Both helped. I bet you do know exactly what I meant; making stuff, whatever that stuff is, can be difficult and scary.
2. I don't know if you're referring to something you're writing right now or to your writing in general. First case, I doubt it, second case, are you kidding? ;)
3. Learning never ends, we all learn something everyday even thouhg we may not notice. Living makes our everyday smarter. We all are capable of learning. And in writing, you know more about writing than most people I know, so, learning... go for it girl!! ;)
4. If you're stuck sometimes it's ok, but don't think you don't have any meaningful to say.
May I say your writing is HUGE? Truly. ;)
*hugs*
I understand how you're feeling because I tend to get hypercritical of myself at times, too.
For someone who has no idea I think you are doing pretty good. A lot of your stuff is original and well written. Most days it is the best fic I've read all day.
Even tho I'm not sure where some of your fic is going it is well written.
I've been trying to find some B/B fic and other than a few LJ sites I'm not having much luck. You know what that means don't you? FF. *shudders* Booth's 'suite', fighting in 'Irak' (seriously! I saw that one the other day.), stuff that avoids canon, and all sorts of stange "plots" and punctuation going on. Your stuff is an oasis of sanity in comparison!
It all rings so true! Are any writers truly confident of their ability at any time, let alone all the time? Sometimes I think the fact that we eternally question ourselves and what we are trying to say, is exactly what makes the writing good.
You are consistently absolutely fabulous btw, although I know you are not digging for praise.
As I said, nice to know I'm not the only insecure scribe out there :)
Though you're right that I wasn't digging for praise, I'm still grateful for your kindness. Thank you. *hugs*
As I said, nice to know I'm not the only insecure scribe out there :)
You're definitely not alone. It's just that the doubts are usually in my head and not out in the open where passersby can see them. *g* If you ever want to commiserate, complain, weep, wail, or gnash your teeth about writing (or not writing), I'm here, and I understand.
But seriously, thank you x
1. Bwuh? You're not kidding me. You know exactly what you're doing and I enjoy every nuance of it.
2. Guh? It's lively, innovative, interesting and just plain brilliant.
3. Pah! Those who can, do; those who can't, teach. You do, very much so. Besides if you close your mind to learning you stagnate. You? Are a waterfall.
4. Bah! (my favourite word of disgruntlement) Don't be silly.
Will check back later for more cheerful blurting.
BUT...
I went looking for Bones fic and found a lot of it was, well, sketchy (to be charitable).
And then there were your stories.
Beautiful tales, simple scenes, powerful phrases, eloquent descriptions, great work.
I don't know anything about anything, but for me, you are the cream of the crop. I visit your site as often as I can (most days) to see what's new and to read and re-read (and re-re-read) your stories.
Please don't stop.
I don't know how you manage to so consistently and regularly create such excellent prose. I am in awe.
Thank you for all your amazing work.
Thank you for sharing.
second, you have to write for yourself. If you enjoy writing then do it. It doesn't matter what people say, you are writing because you want to do it.
and third.. your fics are awesome :P
And when I see that you have written other one, I smile. Your fics make me happy :)
*hugs*
Besos
However, if you're brave enough to post, we're there to say 'I told you so! You rock!' :)
We all have bad days. Insecure days. We get overwhelemed, feel like crap. It happens. But at the end of the day, you still have as much creative talent and keen understanding into human nature as any great writer has ever had.
Maybe you don't feel like you're progressing as much as you would like right now. But I say, wait and see, and sleep on it. Let your subconscious process what you've been doing. Let your dreams clear out the clutter and allow you to tackle what's before you now. I'm willing to bet that you'll soon be struck with inspiration, clarity and confidence.
And regarding your number 4 point: What could be more meaningful than showing the power and importance of human connection?
1. I don't think any writer really knows what they are doing, except that they HAVE to write. It's always there, bubbling beneath the surface.
2. Your writing has a soul, It's made me laugh, cry, or get up and give my husband a kiss. Boring?, derivative?...........it's anything but.
3. And that's the fun part of it all. I sit and go over old stories I'v written and think, 'Wow, I'v changed' The more you do something, the better you get and the more you learn. It's inevitable.
4. See 2. People find meaning in all things. People find comfort in other peoples experiences, fears, joys etc. What you write is meaningful because people experience those things along with you, through the characters. I find meaning in your work because after a shitty day, I sit down and a new drabble pops up and I smile. And I think that's very important. :)